After taking a few months off from obsessing about becoming pregnant, my husband and I are revisiting everything. It was an emotional roller coaster dealing with the RE’s and Urologist all to feel as if you got nothing accomplished. We know that he obviously has a low sperm count and we don’t know the reason. … [Read more…]
A few days ago…Friday March 7, 2014 was the day that I heard God tell me to trust him. I know that I am supposed to trust him each and every day of my life, through every situation and circumstance but that day was different. That is the day that I found out the company that I’ve worked … [Read more…]
I have menstrual cycles that are pretty normal and are like clockwork. So naturally and variation will cause my mind to start wandering and then the symptom spotting begins. This month was one of those months where I REALLY convinced myself that I was pregnant. My cycle was not late at all but I started … [Read more…]
I know I’ve addressed this before, but since this blog is about my feelings and my journey through infertility, I felt that I should bring it up again. I often find myself asking if I’m “doing everything right”? This is a question that has been bothering more lately than it usually would. No matter how … [Read more…]
Pregnancy occupies my brain 90% of the time. No matter what I do or say, that’s how it’s been. I hate that it consumes me so much but how do I change that? Lately, it’s been a little better because I’ve been working on my doula training and reading material but that’s still “baby stuff” … [Read more…]
I found myself thinking “Wow, I can’t believe that it’s a new year and I’m not pregnant yet”. That’s a hard pill to swallow but I refuse to throw a pity party. I’ve been pretty occupied with doula training and I’ve really enjoyed it! I’ve gone through my childbirth education classes for doulas and although … [Read more…]
Well, the title states the obvious but other than not being pregnant, I enjoyed my Christmas! Every month I come up with a reason why THIS would be the month that God decides is the right month for us. So this month I told myself “Yes, this would be great God. Then I could announce … [Read more…]
Stanley decided that he’s done with the clomid. He found himself feeling more and more affected by it emotionally and since we can’t find ANYTHING that supports the use in men, we felt it was best not to use it anymore. We’re also leaning more and more in the direction of getting a second opinion … [Read more…]
Lately, I’ve been so consumed with becoming pregnant and all that’s involved in this journey. I feel like 75% of the time, my mind is on myself. Not in a conceited or vain way, but simply thinking about what I can do next to increase my chances of becoming pregnant. Well a couple of days … [Read more…]
Not becoming pregnant as been a real challenge for my husband and I. We always “knew” that once we got to the point where we wanted to have more children, we would just make the decision to start trying and it would happen. That has been so far from the truth and some days we … [Read more…]