I’m usually really excited about the holiday season but with the recent death of my sister, I’m finding it hard to be excited. She was at my house last Thanksgiving. In the midst of my grief, I wanted so badly to be pregnant so starting my cycle shortly after I received the news was also … [Read more…]
I went to a meeting with the support group that I talked about in my last post and it was amazing. These women have gone through so much! There were so many different stories! I never knew that infertility could be present in so many different ways. I mean, you read about different things online … [Read more…]
Feelings of inadequacy come during different seasons of life and can be caused by various circumstances. For a woman, not getting pregnant definitely can be one of those circumstances that causes feelings of inadequacy to arise. Being able to carry and deliver a baby is part of makes us women, right? So what happens when … [Read more…]
So another perk to having more free time is also having more time to spend with God. I’ve always tried to be intentional with my quiet time but now that I have more time at home, I can really make sure I have adequate quiet time. During my quiet time, I usually find a spot … [Read more…]
I’ve never been one to really exercise. I know that’s not a good thing but it’s the truth. I’ve also never really been the healthiest eater. Apparently those things go hand in hand with bettering your chances of becoming pregnant. Finding the time to work out and plan meals can be challenging when you work … [Read more…]
After taking a few months off from obsessing about becoming pregnant, my husband and I are revisiting everything. It was an emotional roller coaster dealing with the RE’s and Urologist all to feel as if you got nothing accomplished. We know that he obviously has a low sperm count and we don’t know the reason. … [Read more…]
I have menstrual cycles that are pretty normal and are like clockwork. So naturally and variation will cause my mind to start wandering and then the symptom spotting begins. This month was one of those months where I REALLY convinced myself that I was pregnant. My cycle was not late at all but I started … [Read more…]
I know I’ve addressed this before, but since this blog is about my feelings and my journey through infertility, I felt that I should bring it up again. I often find myself asking if I’m “doing everything right”? This is a question that has been bothering more lately than it usually would. No matter how … [Read more…]
Pregnancy occupies my brain 90% of the time. No matter what I do or say, that’s how it’s been. I hate that it consumes me so much but how do I change that? Lately, it’s been a little better because I’ve been working on my doula training and reading material but that’s still “baby stuff” … [Read more…]
I found myself thinking “Wow, I can’t believe that it’s a new year and I’m not pregnant yet”. That’s a hard pill to swallow but I refuse to throw a pity party. I’ve been pretty occupied with doula training and I’ve really enjoyed it! I’ve gone through my childbirth education classes for doulas and although … [Read more…]