I’m learning that everything in life takes time. Right now I know that it will take time for me to heal from losing my sister in such a tragic way. I know that it will take time for us to get pregnant. It’s obviously taken more time then we ever imagined, but that’s okay, we’re … [Read more…]
I’m usually really excited about the holiday season but with the recent death of my sister, I’m finding it hard to be excited. She was at my house last Thanksgiving. In the midst of my grief, I wanted so badly to be pregnant so starting my cycle shortly after I received the news was also … [Read more…]
This has been such an interesting season of life for my family and I. We’ve been trying to get pregnant for about a year now and although that may not seem like a long time for some people, it has felt like an eternity for us. In addition to having fertility challenges, my job will … [Read more…]
I’ve really been trying to shift my focus and think about something other than becoming pregnant lately. I’m really excited about becoming a doula and figuring out what that looks like for me. Being able to serve others but especially pregnant women is so amazing to me. I can’t wait until I can really dive in. In … [Read more…]
I have menstrual cycles that are pretty normal and are like clockwork. So naturally and variation will cause my mind to start wandering and then the symptom spotting begins. This month was one of those months where I REALLY convinced myself that I was pregnant. My cycle was not late at all but I started … [Read more…]
I know I’ve addressed this before, but since this blog is about my feelings and my journey through infertility, I felt that I should bring it up again. I often find myself asking if I’m “doing everything right”? This is a question that has been bothering more lately than it usually would. No matter how … [Read more…]
Pregnancy occupies my brain 90% of the time. No matter what I do or say, that’s how it’s been. I hate that it consumes me so much but how do I change that? Lately, it’s been a little better because I’ve been working on my doula training and reading material but that’s still “baby stuff” … [Read more…]
I found myself thinking “Wow, I can’t believe that it’s a new year and I’m not pregnant yet”. That’s a hard pill to swallow but I refuse to throw a pity party. I’ve been pretty occupied with doula training and I’ve really enjoyed it! I’ve gone through my childbirth education classes for doulas and although … [Read more…]
Well, the title states the obvious but other than not being pregnant, I enjoyed my Christmas! Every month I come up with a reason why THIS would be the month that God decides is the right month for us. So this month I told myself “Yes, this would be great God. Then I could announce … [Read more…]
Stanley decided that he’s done with the clomid. He found himself feeling more and more affected by it emotionally and since we can’t find ANYTHING that supports the use in men, we felt it was best not to use it anymore. We’re also leaning more and more in the direction of getting a second opinion … [Read more…]