This past week has been a good week but kind of stressful too. The good parts were that we were able to see a good, strong heartbeat when we went for our ultrasound and the baby is measuring right where it should be. We also went to visit my family members in North Carolina and we shared the news with them as well as my in laws. The not so great news was that although we were able to see a heartbeat for baby A, we only saw an empty sac for baby B. My doctor says that since it’s still early, it could just mean that the baby implanted in a weird spot and the ultrasound isn’t able to detect it yet. Unfortunately, I’m on edge until our next appointment. It’s kind of hard knowing that one baby is okay but that there could potentially be another baby and we don’t necessarily know that baby’s fate. I know that it’s all in God’s hands and I’m so thankful that we were at least able to see one healthy heartbeat.
The news kind of made me question whether or not we should share it with my family yet. I didn’t know what to tell them. We don’t know if we’re having twins yet and that’s kind of a big deal but in the end we just decided to share it anyway. I’m just praying that we see two healthy babies with strong heartbeats next week. It’s not that we were planning for twins but once you know that there is the possibility of two babies, you love those babies with all of your heart and know that they are a gift from God. They are God’s children from the time that fertilization takes place. At least that’s my view on it.
Anyway, I will continue to pray as I’ve been doing and continue to trust God through this journey. I know that He will never leave us nor forsake us. I know that He has a plan. We trust His plan. I will not allow fear to cripple me and hold me hostage.
When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.
4 In God, whose word I praise—
in God I trust and am not afraid.
What can mere mortals do to me?
Psalm 56:3-4
Kristen D. Johnson
