I CANNOT believe I’m actually writing this…WE’RE PREGNANT!! God has answered our prayers. I felt like I would NEVER get to say those words but I am now able to say them! This feeling is surreal. All of the emotional ups and downs, all of the money, the doctors visits, tests, tears, prayers were worth the moment I heard the words “you’re pregnant”. Grateful doesn’t even begin to describe the feelings that I’m feeling right now. A couple of days ago, I noticed that my boobs were sore under my arms. That doesn’t usually happen before my cycle and it didn’t happen when I was on the progesterone with my fresh IVF cycle so I knew that this was a new symptom. I didn’t want to put too much thought into it though.
I also experienced implantation bleeding but I truly thought that it was my period attempting to start even though I’m on progesterone and that’s supposed to prevent your body from having a period. I just didn’t want to get my hopes up this time because I knew that if it didn’t work this time, I was going to really disappointed and defeated. I was so nervous when I went to the doctor’s office for the test and in the hours as I awaited the phone call from my nurse. Once she finally called, I could tell from the sound in her voice that she had good news for me. I remember the sound of dread when my nurse called me during the failed cycle. I guess they’re emotionally invested in this process too, so when it doesn’t work, they are hurt for you and when it works, they are happy for you. I went and took a home pregnancy test just so that I could see the 2 lines for myself. 🙂 You don’t realize how big of a deal that is until you wait years to see it.
It is still really early in the pregnancy but my numbers were really good and I go back tomorrow to have my blood drawn again just to ensure that my numbers are rising the way that they should be. I will have to wait a little while to learn whether or not both embryos implanted and to hear a heartbeat. I will try my best not to walk on egg shells as I wait for that appointment but it’s hard not to be nervous when you’ve waited so long and had such a hard journey. I’m trusting that God is taking care of this baby or babies and that everything will work out the way it should. I’m so thankful that God has blessed us with this pregnancy. I know that he will be with us throughout the journey.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9
Kristen D. Johnson
