It’s a new year! When most people think of the new year, they think of new beginnings. Many individuals set goals and have “new years resolutions” and are just ready to start with a clean slate. I think you can have a clean slate whenever you want to. After all, God says his mercies are new each morning (Lamentations 3:23). I’m grateful for this new year and I’m excited to see what God has in store for me.
My husband and I still haven’t made a decision about what our next step is going to be as far as our infertility issues are concerned. It hasn’t been a year since he had his surgery so I believe we’re going to wait until we get to the year before making any firm decisions. We’re still trusting God through this process and we would like to become pregnant without any assistance but of course, it’s ultimately up to God. I can honestly say that overall, I haven’t been as concerned as I would normally be about becoming pregnant. Obviously, when it’s around the time of my cycle and I start noticing symptoms, the initial feel of disappointment is there. However, for the most part, I haven’t been obsessing over it like I had been in the past. To be honest, I think I’ve been so overwhelmed with the other events that have occurred in my life that I haven’t had the mental capacity to put as much thought into it.
With all of that being said, I STILL want to be pregnant just as much today as a few months ago but if you were to ask me my cycle day, I probably couldn’t tell you without looking at the calendar. I think that’s a good thing. Obsessing over becoming pregnant has consumed me for quite some time now and I honestly feel like I need a break. My doula business has also picked up significantly over the past few months so that’s been awesome. I love being around pregnant women! 🙂
Some days I wonder if we should even bother taking all of these supplements that we take daily but then I realize, it’s not hurting anything to take them. I mean, obviously we have to pay for them but, if they even increase our chances only slightly, the money is worth it. I’m just a “glass half full” person for the most part so I believe that anything is possible! 🙂
Anyway, I think that’s all for today!
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.
Proverbs 3:5-6 (NLT)
Kristen D. Johnson
