The worst day of my life: the death of my baby sister

A few days ago was the worst day of my entire life. My baby sister was murdered…not sure how I’m even able to write this blog but this has been about me sharing my life and obviously, this is my life. She was shot during a robbery. This is by far the most devastating thing that has ever happened to my family and I. She was such a strong person. She fought through stage 4 ovarian cancer at the age of 21. She made it through that battle like a warrior. I remember coming home from the hospital everyday and crying like a baby because she had cancer. It wasn’t fair. She had so much to look forward to in life. I wanted her to get married and have children. Obviously, it wasn’t about what I wanted for her or even what she may have wanted for herself. Her life was already written. It’s very hard to deal with death, but when someone is murdered, it hurts in a different way.

She made it through that battle for someone to take her life in such a senseless act of violence. Even after all she had gone through, she was still fighting. Fighting for her clothing brand that she had created. Fighting to prove to people that would be successful in life. I love her with all of my heart and I’m honestly not sure how I will get through this but I know I will. I wanted to be able to have more nieces and nephews for her. That was going to be my gift to her…

I feel sick…only God can get me through this. Please pray for my family…especially my mother, my little brother, and myself. Also pray for my sister’s dad, her boyfriend and his family and also all of my aunts and uncles. This is hard for everyone. I know this blog is about infertility but this has definitely changed my life. Having more children has now gone to the back burner.

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted;
    he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.

Psalm 34:18 (NLT)

Kristen D. Johnson