I’m sure the title of this post if misleading. No, we’re not pregnant yet! 🙂 That’s okay though, I forgot to mention in my last post that I’ve been attending births this month as a doula and I absolutely LOVE IT! This is definitely my passion! It’s a bitter sweet time in my life because I have 1 more week left at my job BUT…that means that I will officially be a full-time doula and that’s pretty exciting! Regardless of how tough my infertility journey has been so far, I really enjoy supporting women during labor and delivery. I also love watching babies as the enter the world and take their first couple of breaths.
I’m sure many people are wondering how I can manage to attend births and be around all these pregnant women when we’re going through fertility issues right now. My answer to that is God! This is a passion that he gave me and it takes a special person to do it. Not special as though I’m better than anyone or that it’s easy for me, but special as in, this is a gift that He gave me. This wasn’t something that I came up with on my own. I enjoy being around these women. I enjoy the empowerment that they feel knowing that they have a knowledgable person by their side ready to help them in any way possible.
I could never feel jealous or envious about someone else’s pregnancy. I think that even if I felt those feelings come up, I would simply cast down the thoughts. That isn’t something that God would want me to do. I think it’s okay to get down sometimes but we have to be careful that we don’t get too caught up in those negative feelings and end up going down a mental road that God wouldn’t want us to go down. Besides, being jealous won’t help anyway, so what’s the point? This is just the way that I think and not everyone will think this way and that’s okay. I’m just thankful that I’ve found my passion, and although I’m dealing with fertility issues right now, I refuse to allow that to dictate my life. I trust God.
In you, Lord my God,
    I put my trust.
Psalm 25:1 (NIV)
Kristen D. Johnson
