I found myself thinking “Wow, I can’t believe that it’s a new year and I’m not pregnant yet”. That’s a hard pill to swallow but I refuse to throw a pity party. I’ve been pretty occupied with doula training and I’ve really enjoyed it! I’ve gone through my childbirth education classes for doulas and although it lasted for an entire weekend, it was well worth it. In pursuing my career as a doula, I find myself wondering how many of these pregnant women went through infertility struggles before becoming pregnant? I know there are plenty out there simply because of what research shows. Then I think to myself, many of them eventually got what they wanted. I don’t know what their journey was like but instead I see the outcome and then I realized that there is a lesson in this.
Why be envious of what someone else has? Whether it’s a pregnant woman or someone that has something you’re waiting for. You have no idea what their journey was like or what their walk consisted of. We all have our own walk that WE have to walk so that it can prepare us for what God has for us. This year I will make sure that I’m always grateful for MY walk and MY journey. Despite how challenging it’s been, this is the path that God has for me. I pray that I continue to mature in my faith if nothing else. I MUST make sure that I don’t desire anything more than I desire God. Whether it’s pregnancy or a new career path, I CANNOT desire those things more than I desire God. This is a new year and I must make sure that I continue to grow and develop as God wants me to.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
I desire you more than anything on earth.
Psalm 73:25 (NLT)
Kristen D. Johnson
