Well, the title states the obvious but other than not being pregnant, I enjoyed my Christmas! Every month I come up with a reason why THIS would be the month that God decides is the right month for us. So this month I told myself “Yes, this would be great God. Then I could announce it for Christmas and that will be my gift and also the gift for my entire family…my pregnancy!!” Here I go again, trying to dictate God’s timing. It’s hard not to though. Especially for a self proclaimed control freak such as myself. Unfortunately, I have no control of this situation and the sheer thought of that scares me…I mean really scares me. Anyway, so yeah, I wasn’t pregnant. As a matter of fact, I started spotting on Christmas Day! Merry Christmas Kristen *insert sarcasm here* Needless to say, I’m not pregnant for Christmas.
You know what though? This is what I decided to do this holiday season. I decided to be thankful. For my family and loved ones…something that many don’t have or maybe they do but don’t have the privilege of spending time with their family during the holidays. I’m thankful for a supportive husband and an awesome daughter. I’m thankful that I decided to be obedient and write this blog about something that’s so dear to me, yet something that’s extremely hard to talk about. I’m thankful that instead of walking this journey alone, not only do I have my husband, but I have God with me every step of the way. So instead of being upset that I’m not pregnant and that God didn’t “allow me to be pregnant for Christmas” I decided to be thankful. After all, that’s God will for me anyway.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Always be joyful. 17 Never stop praying. 18 Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. (NLT)
Kristen D. Johnson
