We’re done with the ovulation test strips. I decided that using ovulation test strips and taking my bbt (basal body temperature) was making me anxious so it’s probably best that I stop for now. I realized that since I’ve monitored my ovulation for a couple of months now and I know that I definitely ovulate, there is no need to keep using those methods. I ovulate around the same time every month so what’s the use anyway. It just makes this emotional roller coaster even harder to ride. We will still continue to have sex during and around the time of ovulation and go from there. We’re also thinking about going to another urologist for a second opinion but we’re going to pray on it some more and maybe even wait a few more months just to see what happens. So far, it still hasn’t happened yet but we’re praying that it will happen sooner than later.
Oh, I’ve also still been researching and working on my “new career” path. I went to a reunion for the doula group that I’m interested in being a part of and it went great. The more Stanley and I think about this career change, the more we realize how great it would be. There are definitely a few challenges though. For example, my current job has awesome insurance that has paid for ALL of our infertility testing (with the exception of $10 co-pays for office visits). They will also pay for IUI (intrauterine insemination) if we were to decide to go that route. These perks aren’t so easy to just give up BUT…the freedom that I would have if we went in this direction would be great. We still have a lot of praying and talking to do but it’s something to think about.
Stanley is also still taking that clomid but everyday we become more leery about him taking it. I think when you want something this bad, you often go along with things that you shouldn’t. For example, I believe that if we just had money laying around, there is a strong possibility that I would have pushed my husband to consider IVF knowing that we haven’t given our bodies enough time on their own. Just another example of how hard it is to “trust God” like we often say we’re doing. It’s easy to talk the talk until something like this happens…nonetheless, we’re trusting God even when we don’t want to anymore. Please keep us in your prayers.
Look to the Lord and his strength;
seek his face always
1 Chronicles 16:11 (NIV)
Kristen D. Johnson
