My husband finally got his ultrasound BUT…I had to literally chase the doctor around for the results! This has been so frustrating for both of us! Once the ultrasound was done, the tech told us that the results would go to the doctor the same day and we should be able to receive the results soon after. Well I gave it 2 days and called the doctor and they told me that they didn’t have anything yet. After the next business day had completely passed, I called again and finally talked directly to the nurse that works specifically for this doctor (this is a huge practice with several doctors). When she gets on the phone, she says “Oh the ultrasound results came back normal”? My response was “okay, so now what? We came for answers regarding my husband’s low sperm count…”. So anyway, she tells me that she has to ask the doctor and call us back.
The next business day, I receive a phone call telling me that they want to put my husband on clomid to see if that would increase his count. This was their solution to the “problem”….whatever the problem was. Now I had heard about clomid being prescribed for women suffering infertility to make them ovulate. I had also heard that it makes you crazy! I did some research and found that some doctors do prescribe it for men with low sperm count just to see if it will work but it had not been approved by the FDA for use in male infertility. So this would basically be a trail and error situation.
We decided to give it a try and see what happens but if my husband ends up with crazy side effects then he would stop immediately. At this point, we’re kind of disappointed because we almost feel like we’re back at square one. We have no idea what the problem is and now the doctor doesn’t even seem to know what’s wrong. Sometimes it’s hard not to ask God “why us”? What did we do wrong? Are we being punished for something? This is by far one of the hardest roads we’ve traveled as a married couple and it may even be one of the hardest roads we’ve traveled as individuals. We refuse to let the circumstances of this situation come between our marriage though. We will pray harder. We will draw closer to God so that he will in turn draw nearer to us (James 4:8).
We will continue to praise God through this storm. We must develop through this process…we must find joy in the midst of this.
James 1:2-4 (MSG)
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.
Kristen D. Johnson
