I’ll admit that I’ve never been one of the most patient people on this earth but this process has been excruciating for me! Everything has been about waiting. I wait to ovulate and then I wait to see if I’m pregnant. I wait on my period to come on and the cycle starts again…waiting to ovulate and so on. Waiting, waiting, waiting! One thing I can say about this process is that God obviously wanted me to work on my patience and I’ve had no choice but to work on it.
We’re currently waiting to get the ultrasound done. Since it’s an out-patient procedure done at a hospital, we had to go through the process of waiting for the doctor to send the orders over before we could even schedule an appointment. Anyway, the appointment is in a couple of days and once it’s done, it should only be a few days before we know the results. I’m just ready to move forward and get the ball rolling. Once a problem has been identified, my philosophy is that the solution should be worked on almost immediately. Of course everything isn’t up to me and my philosophies.
We’re now faced with a new challenge. If the varicoceles are significant enough, would we be open to having a procedure done to repair them? Of course I say yes, but this isn’t my decision to make. My husband is definitely apprehensive about having any “procedures” or “surgeries” done on his testicles. I mean, we all know how men feel about their private area. He’s been amazing so far but I know this is hard for him as well. He hasn’t complained not once though…sometimes I’m amazed at just how awesome he is. Obviously we will research to determine what our options are and then decide what’s best for our situation. This is also a situation where we have to trust God’s guidance. We have to trust that he will show us what we should do. If it comes down to having a procedure done, we have to trust that he will guide the hands of the doctor. We MUST trust him in every piece of this journey…I know everyone hears me repeat this over and over again but it’s because I have to remind myself to TRUST in the Lord with all my heart and not depend on my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5).
Kristen D. Johnson
