We’re now in month 6 of trying to conceive. We’re still not pregnant…as far as the medical professionals are concerned, this is “normal” and one should be “trying to conceive for at least a year before seeking professional help” . I know some people would even say “oh, that’s no time” but it feels like an eternity when it’s your situation. Especially when you’ve also been told that you’re now facing infertility due to a low sperm count. I do have some news though. My husband saw the urologist and after having a physical exam done, the urologist says that he is almost positive that he has varicocele veins in his testicles. For those that don’t know what varicoceles are, it’s basically dilated or enlarged veins in the testicles. Because these veins do not function properly, blood pools and causes the veins to enlarge and experts believe that this ultimately causes a temperature increase in the scrotum. This increase in temperature thus causes a decrease sperm count and also a decrease in motility.
This news was both disappointing and relieving. The feeling of relief was because we felt like we found the problem and the next step would be fixing it. It was still disappointing because we were hit with a harsh reality: we were facing infertility and here is the reason why. Without this news, we could hold on to the idea that maybe both of those semen analysis were wrong and there isn’t anything wrong with my husband. That he has perfectly normal functioning reproductive organs…but that’s no longer the case.
The next step is for him to get an ultrasound to confirm that the varicoceles exist and how bad they are. We’ve already scheduled the ultrasound and will be going through with that process within the next week or so. We will continue to pour our hearts out to the Lord. We know that ultimately, this is all in his hands. We will still take our supplements and believe the best in this situation. I mean after all, non of this changes the fact that it only takes ONE sperm to fertilize the egg. We will believe. We will trust and put our hope in the Lord. He is our hope…
Psalm 62:5 says: “Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him.”
I will wait on the Lord…he is my hope. My only hope…
Kristen D. Johnson
