OH EM GEEEEE!! I forgot to mention in my last post that I was also scheduled to have the HSG procedure done within a few days. For those of you who may not know what that procedure is, a hysterosalpinogram or HSG procedure is when a series of x-rays are taken of your Fallopian tubes and uterus after dye is injected through the vagina. Sounds simple, huh? Except for the fact that they have to put a catheter into your cervix and dilate it slightly in order to push the dye through! This was the most painful procedure I’ve EVER experienced. When the RE’s office scheduled it and explained the procedure to me, they told me “oh, just take a couple of ibuprofens before you come in and you should be fine”. They also told me that I may experience a little cramping and spotting afterwards.
This was the most pain I’ve ever felt! I’ve had different people tell me different things about this procedure. Some says it was extremely painful for them while others say it wasn’t that bad at all. I guess it’s different for everyone but it was awful for me. At least it’s over and done with now. My husband has also had his tests done so now we’re just waiting on our results. I am praying that all of our results as normal…but then I have to ask myself, if they do, what will I do next? I have the type of personality that always wants to fix things. What will I do if there is nothing to fix? I will trust God’s timing…that’s the ONLY thing I can do. Saying it sounds so easy but actually living it is extremely tough. I think this is probably one of the first times in my life where I feel like I have no control…but I think this is all a part of God’s plan. If I have no control, that means I have no choice but to trust him completely…with every fiber of my being.
Psalm 46:10 says “Cease striving and know that I am God”. This verse says a lot to me…it tells me to stop trying to control everything and let God handle the details! I’m working on it…
Kristen D. Johnson
